Hello World!! This is the first of what I hope will be many posts. I'm new to blogging, so I expect there will be a learning curve... Stuff I'll get wrong... Posts that will come across like the ramblings of a mad woman (or man, depending on the day).

So let me get started, my name is Bobbie, and for all intents and purposes I am two years old. I discovered in my 50's that I have a need to wear women's clothing. Like most cross dressers, this need has been with me for a long long time. I can remember as a child being forced into tights, I can clearly remember my fear and anguish over having to put them on, almost as though I knew what it would eventually lead to. The reason for the tights was innocent enough, my cousins and I were doing a Christmas skit for our respective parents and the tights were part of my costume. I was four or five, and boy did they feel good!! Over the years I tried various things, my mother's clothes for the most part, as long as they fit me. I loved it when Leggs came out in those cute little egg shaped packages! I expanded my supply of pantyhose exponentially (Right, I went from one pair to three) My mother was a small woman then and I was a skinny kid, just taller so her clothes fit me for the most part, at least until I got to high school. I had an intermission for a number of years while I was in the military, the military at the time frowned at the idea of it's members not wearing the gender appropriate clothing, go figure, right. Once I married, even though I was still in the military, I again had an opportunity to play around with my clothing choices. During this time I left the military and not long thereafter the marriage ended, neither was due to cross dressing, surprise, surprise.

The time between my marriages was highlighted wanton debauchery, we'll just leave that to your imagination.

This seems like a good time to break and answer some questions before we get to Bobbie's awakening...

Q: Is your cross dressing for sexual gratification?
A: Boy if it was only that easy, like most cross dressers (according to the research and various forum posts I've read) it started out that way, but then as a teen, everything is sexual. Currently, that is no longer the case, I find that I am relaxed and at peace when dressed. That's not to say that I'm not at peace and relaxed in boy mode.

Q: Do you want to undergo surgery to change your gender?
A: No

Q: Can you expand on that?
A: Well, if I gotta... I like the various bits and pieces of my body the way they are. I make accommodations, I'm clean shaven, I "manscape" to the extreme... I keep my body hair to a minimum. I have no intention to make any changes to my body that cannot be reversed by simply letting it grow back, not surgery or hormones. If it can't be fixed by makeup, padding, or shaving, it will not happen.

Q: Are you out to your family?
A: I'm out to a select few people, the only family member that knows is my wife. Having said that, I have been painting my toenails for a while and my kids have seen them... They think it's cool. I'm also out to a couple of friends.

Q: Are you seeking help?
A: I need all the help I can get, picking out clothes, putting on makeup, tucking in this, accentuating that. Oh, you mean and seeing a professional, yes I am. Am I expecting a cure? Nope.

So, this seems like a good stopping place... I'll be adding more soon... check back for updates.